My PersonalStory...

By the age of 38, I had my Instagram-inspired life. I was living in a beautiful quintessential

Tribeca loft while successfully holding down a well-earning and senior management-level 

job at one of the hottest companies in New York.  It felt like I had reached the pinnacle

of my success.

Yet, within the walls of my psyche, I had never felt more insecure about my life. Feelings of

unworthiness, inadequacy, and confusion constantly clouded over me. Daily, I was covertly

gripped with paralyzing fear that one day, someone would find out the real truth about me,

that I wasn’t smart enough, good enough, and worthy of my success. Despite the fact that I

had achieved so much in my life and career, I was hopelessly suffering on the inside.

And the worst part, I didn’t know why.

To cope with my internal struggles, I was secretly popping a cocktail of prescription drugs that I believed would help me manage the fragility I felt inside. In reality, it was further propelling my life out of control. Every day, I was ingesting Adderall to treat my ADD symptoms, anti-anxiety pills to curb the stress of modern-day life and of course, Ambien to reverse the nightly effects of Adderall. 

Over time, I had trained and set into default my nervous system to continuously live inside of survival mode -- our body’s fight, flight or freeze response. Even during times of relaxation, I had an undercurrent of stress, anxiety, and nervousness perpetually running through my system. Because I lacked the self-awareness to take ownership

of my part, I blamed my job, people, and my broader environment for the pain I was

experiencing inside. Little did I know it was my own unconscious victim mindset that was

keeping me from experiencing the freedom and fulfillment I deeply craved. 

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It’s been a few years since I decided to hang up my victim cape and take on a more empowered

approach to living my life. In 2018, I tossed my prescription pills down the drain, moved to Bali,

and, joined a global non-profit organization and committed to bringing my mental, emotional

and energetic body into harmony. I entered into a deep spiritual journey -- understanding and

experiencing my Creator in ways I was not able to do so within the confines of organized

religion. Over time, I realized that I was unconsciously creating and perpetuating my own deep

struggles. I learned that my internal state, NOT my external environment, was perpetuating my

suffering. I ferociously poured over inner-development books, experimented with every healing

modality that was within my reach and faithfully worked with coaches, healers, and guides to

help me bravely navigate my inner landscape.

And throughout it all, I discovered a universal  truth

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Cupped in my bare hands was the ability to heal myself -- I simply needed to want it, badly enough. I discovered that there was a more empowered way to live my life. I stopped pointing the fingers towards my external world for faults or solutions. I found the courage to slowly step off the societal hamster wheel and begin the process of defining, designing and driving my own reality. I learned to deal with all of life’s subtleties by first going inward,

understanding my part and taking action only when it was rooted in authentic

power and expression. 

Today, I feel alive, aligned...and awake. More than all of the abundance that

I've manifested in my life since starting my journey, what's been most gratifying

is how expertly I can now energetically navigate my inner world -- so much so

that manifesting my desires into form has daily miracles that I get to enjoy

every day. Today, I also have the spaciousness to fully take in, from a place of

pure presence, all of life's blessings, something that I never experienced in the

past despite all of the societal riches I had accumulated in my life. 

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Humbly, I can’t say that my internal work is behind me -- to awaken to our full

potential requires lifetime commitment, courage, and a deep wanting to expand our consciousness beyond what our five senses can witness. I am fully invested in continuing to evolve and expand. At this point of my healing journey, I feel a deep, sacred calling to help people who are willing, open and ready to embark on the same journey as I did -- to bravely step into the unknown, guide them through the deep corners of their inner world and work through childhood programs often expressed as limiting beliefs that may have once served them but will not take them towards where they want to go. True freedom, internal harmony and unflinching self-love is what sits on the other side of our time together. I am passionate about working with people who want it badly enough, and will do the work necessary to feel and be sustainably well. Most of all, I am driven by an unquenchable desire to co-create a future world with others like me, who have a lifelong ambition of leaving the world better than how they found it.

Here’s the blatant yet exciting truth: Our world needs each of us to bravely step into our authentic power. This time in our history is calling all of us (and I really do mean, all of us!) to this higher responsibility and order. And from that place of authentic inner transformation, it is only then can we effect the change we hope to see in the world.

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